Not Really All That Logical...

I love the way she stretches in the morning. The cute little scrunching up of her face as she alternately tenses and relaxes muscles that have been sleeping.

The wind just kind of blew us together. Neither of us was really looking for a relationship but, as I heard in a movie (Fools Rush In), she was everything I never knew I always wanted.

When I was kid I would often dare myself to do the most outrageous things but inevitably I’d always find some rationale to bail out at the last minute.

When I look back though, there were two decision points in my life where I took a chance, but even in those instances I knew in my heart that the paths that I was chose were (without a question) the best course of action to take given the current circumstance. I hadn’t worked out all the details yet but I knew everything was going to be all right if I just trusted my instincts and followed my heart.

I wonder where the courage comes from in those times. What emotions and criteria are involved in the spirit to drive someone either away from an emotional relationship or into one? Where do we get the courage to allow another to come into our lives and to see ourselves when we are most vulnerable?

Man is not a logical creature although some of us feel we are bound by logic and behave rationally (in most situations). I don’t think there is any man, woman, child or even animal that is immune to the need and without a capacity to love as illogical as that is.

I’ve never been much of a “social animal.” In most cases, if you put me in a room with more than a few people that I don’t know, chances are I’ll probably stay silent off to the side and take in the room for quite awhile. I would only get engaged in the situation if/when I am either pulled into a conversation or if I somehow, oddly, get comfortable with the circumstance.

I met my wife through an online acquaintance. The first time we actually met face to face was in at an airport (we had previously agreed to meet in a neutral location…a city between our two homes) and there was quite a crowd in the room as her flight disembarked. Oddly enough, despite the fact that there were many other strangers present, I didn’t feel uncomfortable at all greeting her with a warm hug and kiss.